My First Time

The title is rather misleading, I’ll be the first to admit. It’s somewhat comparable to the wordpress version of clickbait- but to clickbait you have to have some kind of presence online and I, as far as blogging goes, do not. Alas, here we are- my first time posting to this new blog.

I’ve had blogs in the past, my Tumblr amassing a following of over 33k people whilst my secondary wordpress never quite surpassed 8 followers (thanks to those loyal OGs, though). Despite my past dabbles in social media management and blogging, I’ve never done any of this properly before. It is in my personality to pick up and drop things quicker than Hillary Clinton can change her opinion on a key issue; if there was a term for the opposite of an addictive personality, that is what I am. So for me, in a way this really is my first time blogging- properly.

Tumblr has been one of my most successful and consistent ventures

Being such an opinionated person, it makes sense to me that I should write and express what I think, even if no one asked, and having just finished school I find myself floating through life as if drifting aimlessly at sea; I don’t know quite where I’m going or what I’m doing. I think though, that to feel this way is quite millennial, no? A generation of young people are finishing school and finding that in awaiting their results, they must work dead-end part time jobs and sleep through a chunk of time that media dictates should be their prime.

We’ve all seen them: the endless films glamorising ‘spring break’ and summers of love and lust. It all appears so exciting and busy- so filled with lazy days at the beach and wild nights in the city- when in reality teens are spending their summers working 11 hour shifts in coffee shops for minimum wage just to emerge from the dingy shopfront so exhausted that to manage anything but to sleep for the ensuing free days seems unreasonable. And trust me, I speak from experience.

As a morning person, the sudden transition from waking at 6am for a day of revision- of purpose- really took me by surprise. Now I find myself sinking into a routine that is so vanilla I’m struggling to motivate myself to wake by 10 on a day I don’t need to be in work.

I wake up, I eat (sometimes), I go to the gym, I go to work, I sleep, repeat.

Prior to this empty period of time, I had such huge plans. I spent the whole of my AS Level year planning for my amazing A2 summer- I would start a YouTube channel, learn sign language, get fit, hem all the clothes that flood my tiny 5ft frame; now I sit at my desk, dreading a weekend of 29 hours at work and wondering what the hell happened to my ambition. So let’s take a step toward an achievement- a first blog post.

I’m not entirely sure where I plan on going with this, honestly. I’m not sure anyone would be interested in reading my personal views on issues or experiences, but you never know if you don’t try- and I’m a huge advocate for trying new things. I don’t want to be a hypocrite (at least on this plane), so this first post marks my beginnings of development and ambition. This summer is not going to be filled with nothing but void blanks between work shifts, I’m going to do things- and I’m going to share these things. Day One down, here’s to the next Sixty.